Day 11 - a photo that makes you angry/sad...
Well this one isn't as fun. :( I didn't like having to think about a picture that made me sad.
This was taken right after our little man came back home from the hospital...again. Four days after we came home from the hospital with him, we went to go see his new pediatrician. She wanted to do blood-work right away. When she got the result that night, she wanted us to go to the hospital immediately. (Not something brand new parents want to hear!) Our little man had severe jaundice and needed treatment asap. His jaundice levels had skyrocketed! But thankfully, he is a blessed little baby and remained just out of the danger zone for permanent damage. He had to stay overnight and then some under the UV light and the hospital was nice enough to let us stay nearby in a spare room with a bed. Let me just say, I cried like a baby all the way to the hospital and throughout the night.
It makes me so sad to see all the IV bruises and skin boo-boo's from the tape. I couldn't even bring myself to take a picture of the heels of his feet, because they were so dotted with marks from the needles from where he had to have blood drawn, like a little connect-the-dot puzzle. Even after we were able to take him home, we kept having to go back for blood-work for a couple of weeks. I hated seeing my baby crying under the UV lights and poked and prodded without being able to explain to him what was going on. I hated seeing the reminders on his skin of what he had had to go through. It made me so sad for him, I never wanted him to be hurt. I will probably be feeling that way my whole life though. I'm a mama bear now! :) From the moment I knew we were going to have a baby, I wanted to keep him safe. Once he was out in the world in my arms, I wanted to protect him and love him, I didn't want him to be sick or hurting! I never want him to be sad or get hurt - it tears at my heart to hear him cry, I just want to kiss it and make it better ...with a mama band-aid!